Paul's Planet

Dear Blog~~

come again to say something

just wanna to say....
but don't know what should i say...
feel like many things in my heart...
but~
i can't even say it out...
can't tell anybody...
just keep in myself...

once upon a time, i really hope that there is someone that really will lend his/her time to me..even just a really short time...hearing my story give the shoulder for me...i'm appreciate with it!
but...
i know it's impossible!
cause...
no one will really spend their time just to listen to me with an untitled story...
and for more...they will even say it out just like a funny story to everyone!!

Really...really....really....tired with everything
but just keep on cheer myself...
telling myself that: "Tomorrow is another perfect day! go for it! i will gonna see something new and gain something new!"

even doing this also make me so damn tired! really wanna to give up everything!
stop giving out my feeling...
once it's given out...what is waiting for me just the endless hurt!
and when i take my heart back...it's always full of the wound and become scar on it!

i had lost my way to cheer myself up..
better to close myself and locked it in a dark dark place...and don't give any hope from now on...
because more i hope, and more i hurt!

So...just telling myself now...
don't believe in anybody...just believe myself...
no one really will like you or love you!!
so...don't hope they will really care about you!

no one is really perfect so do i!!
Really TIRED at this moment!

Hope someone is here for me now...
but...who will it be?
there's always an unknown answer........